The pacer had also admitted to be in a tough phase during the separation from his wife. "Shami was fighting with everything during that phase. He lived with me in my house. But when the fixing allegations with Pakistan broke, and led to a probe that night, he was shattered. He said that I can tolerate everything but not allegations of betraying my country," Umesh said on Shubhankar Mishra's podcast.   "It also came in the news that he wanted to do something drastic that night [end his life]. It was around 4 AM in the morning when I got up to drink water. I was on my way to the kitchen when I saw that he was standing on the balcony. It was the 19th floor we were living in. I understood what happened. That night of Shami's career, I feel, was the longest," he added. Shami was eventually cleared of any wrongdoings and Umesh shared that the pacer was happiest after knowing the result of committee examining the allegations. "Later, one day, when we were talking, he got a message on his phone saying he got a clean chit from the committee that was investigating the matter. He was probably happier that day than he would have been if he had won a World Cup," Umesh added. Most recently, Shami performed splendidly at the ODI World Cup 2023 - taking the highest wickets (24) in the tournament despite playing only seven matches. The pacer has since been recovering from an injury and hasn't played in any form of competitive cricket since then, including the Indian Premier League (IPL) 2024 and T20 World Cup 2024. Get help & support for suicide If you or someone you know wants help for mental well-being, don't hesitate to talk to a professional. You can contact local authorities and also encourage the person to contact a suicide prevention hotline using the information above link. WION is not associated with any of these organisations and does not make any recommendations.